I don’t think anybody noticed, but I disappeared for most of the weekend because shwetanarayan was helping me cope with the PTSD via extended Shadowrun Homebrew RPG sessions. I am apparently actually good at the RPG thing, instead of horrible, at least where character and story are concerned. A good time was had by all.
On my birthday, I started disassociating in the morning and I’m really glad that I asked for the day off because driving in that condition is a very bad idea. I was even having trouble walking. And yeah, I was having issues telling the difference between dreams and reality. But RPG sessions saved the day.
This is my character:
Hachiro “James” Fujioka, who is actually Vietnamese, but was adopted by a Japanese family, and yeah really long story. They are non-binary (DMAB). They are into knitting. And I mean really, really, really into knitting.
My time spent with the Company IRL helped me to produce the following artifact: the Corporate Maslow Hierarchy of Needs as taught by the schools of CalFree:
co-workers and peers
payment for services rendered
medical health and insurance
Anyways, they have reached a place in their life where they might conceivably proceed to look like this some days without persecution:
But who knows what the future holds?
My brain is still sufficiently hung over from the remains of the PTSD that working on Alex in Wonderland has been somewhere around impossible.
Also the ferry commute was an utter and complete disaster and I am only now getting sleepy enough to sleep. And that’s pushing it.